GUN SHOTS!!!?? yikes!!
you guys are making me laugh by saying "THE add"
i was diagnosed with it back in middle school and always gave my ritalin away to older kids who would think i was cool because i was giving them drugs : / i never liked taking it.
I was later diagnosed with ADHD by my friends, in high school
but i blame that on the cid
And yeah i do know that empowering feeling you get after you trip
but for me, its more like that of a warriors disposition, i feel like i could make decisions quickly, great focus, but i usually feel void of emotion (which is nice) but it doesnt last for months for me.. maybe a few days at best..
ADD- I've basically learned to cope with it, repeated daily tasks help to focus my mind, and I try to describe my self as "interested in the world", instead of "unable to focus on one thing at a time" : D
I wish i could be blessed by a buhhdists monk, although im sure it would leave me feeling hollow and awkward, but id love to meet some real hardcore meditaters!!
kutos on setting up that regime, it sounds really progressive
which is what i try to aim for. The less stagnent i feel, the better my mental health, the more pressure i can fell i can handle without breaking down.
I like the conflict tho.. of how easy it is to regress back to smoking out all the time and getting lazy, and then reshaping your life.. of fighting yourself, then giving in, then changing again. Realizing you've learned a lesson before, and you know the steps to correction a problem. There are little pitfalls and quirks to both sides.. i guess the joy is in actually being able to decide to fuck up or fix your life..