"i remember about three different episodes when i got so paranoid that i pulled a 'roo', "
LOL! My biggest worry is someone stealing "roo" and posting here and elsewhere. When I am unable to keep up with the board, I delete my account.
I know about having a housefull of "evidence". In reality I only started realy posing on the net after I had "cleaned my house" so to speak. I know what it is to be sitting on a time bomb. I do not know how I survived the old days...
Paranoia can be a good thing. So far I am alive and well. Being this deep into the underground, even in the relm of information, can make one paranoid.
For me at least, my paranoia stems from what I am in reality verses here. I have always kept a tight lid on my exploits. I have always kept this life a huge secret. I think this "conflict" is quite common here. Far be it for me to confess my "sins", but if people only knew what I did in my spare time and how long I have done it. LOL! I have seen a few people poke their heads above ground and get them chopped off.. I am very much content with knowing I have seen and experianced things very few people get the chance to see. It is certainly less risky to give people the key, rather than unlock and open the door for them.
There was a time when very few people know how to grow the shroom. It was high science. There is no reason to grow large amounts of them. There is no market for them. Now people can do this in secret. They just have a few boxes in the closet. I have seen some very amazing stats on just how many people grow shrooms in this country. I do not remember the exact number but it was in the millions. I have spoken to many groups of people, from a "respectable" position, and I have come to the conclusion that this stat is correct.
This is why MANY people look up to you Hippie. There was a time not so long ago when one realy had to be in the know to trip. Now they just grow their own. From my experiance these people represent a braod spectrum of society. Truck drives, factory workers, writers, artists, IT's, doctors etc.
Hippie, do you ever just sit back and realize that you have had a large role in starting a movement? LOL! Ott, the preverbial psychonaut, has brought up this site and you by name. I have seen links to this site all over the underground. I have heard this site mentioned at lectures on shamanism.
Many people thank you for your hard work. You seem to have the impression that people still see you the way they did on ADM. This is not the case. In reality you have actualy helped the community gain some much needed respectability. Mycotopia has most certainly grown into a haunt for mature trippers.
"Who needs shrooms when you got Ayahuasca?"
Very true. For me at least I have found my entheogen. LOL! I still like the insanity of a good shroom trip a few times a year... 10 grams and me running around the woods at 3 am, naked. Pure paradise!
