[bozefonce]

I lie in bed in the dark and seek ego death and transcendence. If smoking weed, the visuals change character and become less metallic and more colorful. Sometimes I travel to crystal rooms and other planes of pure white light. Music or television simply distract me from this. The times I've been social or done other things, it makes me feel like I'm missing out on something, but at the same time, you can't go rocketing through space/time every damn time you trip. I've experienced intense laughter one trip, and intense sensuality another. An extremely erotic trip occurred another time. Sometimes I get color enhancement and feel like the walls and fixtures have personalities and spirits that want to communicate with me. One time I sat outside at night with a full moon and knew the clouds had intelligence and wisdom, and I felt like I was up in the silent void with them only feeling the wind and cold. It's never exactly the same twice. Sometimes it's amazingly wonderful, sometimes it's rough. Amazingly, even after the roughest trips, when I finally wake in the morning, I feel amazingly at peace and energized the rest of the following day, sometimes more. I seek enlightenment and new perspectives, regardless of what I do.