First ever, P. Semilanceata

[kocos]

After reading through storming the gates, i thought it would be time to share my very very first experience with a psychadelic substance. I reckon i was 18 years old, smoked pot for 3 years by that time, always had a thing for mushrooms so i started reading up on them. I soon discovered that there was a specie common in sweden and other north european countries. So it was fall, nature twisted itselfe into its golden, red colors and i was out scouting the fields, golf courses without to much succes. Then one day i found two small specimens, so atleast i knew there was a good chance to locate more. The next day i biked quite a bit from home to a small river, with a field, that had sheep grazing all summer, but was now empty.
After walking around in circles not finding anything, i finally founda whole group growing out of a chunk of grass, after picking them and walking the same path i already walked 3 times that day, i saw them, they were everywhere, small groups clearly visible now that my eyes got used to it. Prior to this day i wread trip reports on this mushroom, and found it very interesting, i felt like i just had to give it a shot. The recomended dose was 30 mushrooms, on mushroomjohns website perhaps?
So after picking many handfulls i took 10 large specimens strait from the ground, found the taste to be pretty good, like redishes, but they had this tingely feeling to them after some time. I carried on picking the mushrooms and waited for the onset of the first 10, but it never came, i decided after 1 hour to take 10 more, and about half an hour later, still not feeling anything i took the finall 10. So i was at 30 fresh mushrooms, with a sack full of freshies, still waiting for the onset. I decided that i waited enough and even though i wanted to trip out in the open i rather went home. This must have been atleast 2.5-3 hours after i took the first ones. I managed to bike home (10 km) without a problem. Went upstares, took my clothes of and sat down sorting the mushrooms, puting them out to dry. I couldnt stop thinking about the fact that i took 30 mushrooms and didnt feel anything, from the tripreports it seemed people came up within 30 minutes and peeked soon after... the minutes whent by, i was well over 3 hours into the thing, the only things i saw were small white dots, as if stars apeared on the sky, even though it was 3 pm. The out of no where this scary very very loud laughter poured out of me, i didnt find anything funny, i didnt have the urge to laught, but it just tore out of me like a train, HAHAHAHAHAAAAAA, and HAHAHAHAHAAAAA, this was nutral to me, but i though what the heck, stars, laughter this isnt too bad. I put 5 more mushrooms on a plate and entered the living room, turned on the pc, put on some psytrance and tried to chat. And then for some reason i looked to my left on the balcony window, and BAAAAAM.
tHE window split in half from the top down, and a pulsating rainbow oozed out from the center, coming in waves engulfing the entire room with me in it. The walls breathed, everything had patterns on it which are to complicated to describe, then it reached me, felt as if i was dipped into something, i felt my body change, and looking around myselfe seeing this swirling mass of colors which used to be my living room, i freaked.... i was alone and very very very gone. Out of some idiotic impulse i put some clothes on and rushed out of the apartment, left the door open, didnt take any food or water, i just ran and ran, i started making my way towards the river, looking at the clouds swirling and sending rainbow hues across the sky, the trees rolling into flowers which flowered and swirled at a great pace. I enjoyed what i saw, but what i felt inside i couldnt controll, i was afraid and alone, i didnt know what was going to happen, how long it would last, what i was going to do. These thoughts went around in endless loops pushing me deeper and deeper into this seemingly endless nightmare. I reached the river, and tried to vomit, i was so dry from runing and hyperventilating i couldnt vomit, the large amounts of chewd mushrooms coming up halfway my throat only to go back down, this made me feel even more wasted, i ended up going from the river to the road back and forward many times, when down at the river i felt enought strength and couraage to run throught the village and back home, but the second i got to the road and saw the cars i freaked and ran back down. I did this atleast 10 times, lucky its a small place and no one was around. I went down to the river bank, started washing my face with water, i didnt feel the water hit my face, infact when i looked at my hands aproaching my face it was mor like waching the tv, i didnt feel i was me, or had a body, it was just my ego struggeling with this overwhelming experience. As a last resort i ran into the forest, and got lost for a few hours, the trees were forming symetrical patterns, the mushrooms (mainly amanitas) growing to the size of beach umbrellas, i kept on talking to myselfe that this will end, ill be alright, this is infact what i wanted so what is the big deal, non of this worked, the endless overwhelming amount of OEV-s made it impossible to calm down, not to mention the constant ego fighting. I found my way out only to find myselfe infront of the hospital, cant imagine how much i had to struggle not to go in and tell them what i did and beg them to help me. Took all my strength to let go of the thought and run home... When i got back, everything was as i left it, swirling, colorfull, it was home but completly different at the same time. My cat gave me one of the last kicks in the balls.
When i dried boletes the cat normally snatched a few, it had a thing for mushrooms, looks like she had a thing for psychedelics too, the cat was wasted, pupills covering her entire eyes, she rolled around cried to me, chased invisible things, etc. That was it i thought this is a nightmare, its never going to end. I took a large bottle of water and struggled to get it all down, once down i puked, as i leaned over the toilet, my puke came out in rainbow colors, the small specks of mushrooms glittering like jewellery, i flushed. I drank again and puked my rainbow again... i was hoping this would be the end of it, but the mushies swirling around in my stomache and mouth kicked in even more.. then i was shattered, i lost it, i didnt pass out, i just let go, fell on the bed, and prepared to die, this was the first point i actually enjoyed the whole thing, the second i let go of my ego, i started paying attention to the visuals, the spirals, fractals, colors, the furniture breathing etc, time seemed endless, i didnt notice it got dark outside, i didnt even notice i came down from the trip, when i finally did i fell in love. Regardless it being a scary, overhwhelming, ( you took way too fuucking much) experience, i felt as if i learned somthing, not something more like everything about myselfe, natue, the connection, this ofcourse wasnt true, but coming back from this 8 hour+ journey this is what i felt. After that i fell asleep, and guess what i did the next day... i dosed again.

[Hippie3]

[Paradox]

[mister]

very interesting report. thanks for sharing!

[kocos]

Didnt have time to wright my conclusion yesterday. The reason i wrote the report down is because that very first, intense trip, has changed my capabilty to trip, perhaps its just subconcios or a placebo effect, but i can "trip hard" from just a gram of cubies, not always offcourse but looking at my fellow tripper friends they need a lot more to get the same effect as me. This is one of the aspects, the other being that iam always a bit afraid to enter the other realm, or in other words "storm the gates" its by far the coming up which causes to most "problems" havnt had a bad trip in years but i still have that little feeling in me everytime i dose, and iam sure this is in direct relation to that first trip, or the last in that period. I didnt wright that down either yesterday, that i was "stoopid" enought to trip almost everyday for a 3 week period, after the first day, i took 15, had a friend babysit, when i felt the coming up i had to get out of the apartment, we went down to the river to the same spot as the day before, and we started fishing. Man what an experience that was, there was a powerdam on the river there, huge amounts of water surfacing from below causing huge boils and waves which i saw being very colorfull and constantly moving, i tied on a lure completly usless for the river, and hooked a nice pike on the first cast, i couldnt beleive it, that joy just pulsed through me and well wow, its beyond words what i felt, peace, love harmony, the connection with nature, so this was completly different than the day before. To cut a very long story short, about 3 weeks after this i went on a fishing trip to the north, came back in the evening about a week later, and decided to dose. "Just" 15 in a tea i thought no biggy, my gf was there at the time too. Onset was crazy fast less than 20 minutes and i had great blobs floating against the walls, went out to take a leek and then it happend, as i pissed and looked behind me on the corridor, it started becoming narrower and narrower like a tunnel, it also became extremly dark. 2 minutes later i felt like i was in a dark cave with no way out, asked my girlfirend to help me get dressed so we can take a walk, when she understood i was wasted she started screaming with me, pushing me deeper and deeper into the cave, at this point i think i was crying, telling her to stop cus iam going insane. Wont go into the details cus they are horrific and no one needs to know them, i ended up cleaning my belly out as on the first trip, and also flushed about 3-400 grams of dry semis which took almost a month to collect... I DIDNT trip for over a year after that. Then did it back here in hungary, had about .8 grmas of perhaps PE and had a wicked trip, great visuals great feelings. People ask me why i dont dare venture deeper, lets say 3-4-5 grams? Its simple, iam afraid, butiam climbing the lader step by step so hopefully ill get past the gates in the future

[mister]

Did you tell her you were going to be tripping? Doesn't seem logical as to why she was screaming with you. That's good that such a low dose can have such profound effect. Fishing sounds fun too! First cast = catch = SWEET!

You're making me look forward to sharing my FOAF's first exp.

[kocos]

She knew, but she hated it, she didnt dare try it herselfe so she gave me a bad time while on it. Iam sure she didnt understand at that time that her actions just fucked me even more while tripping. Oh well lesson learned, that cunt dumped so all is good again Semis are just sooo strong, completly different thatn cubies, just sooo damn colorfull its crazy. OOOh and forgot to mention that almost all CEV were of mushrooms, fat mushrooms, thin ones, dead ones, small ones u name it, mushies everywhere

[Seee]

Everytime i read a good trip report, i cant help but feel like im tripping again.
I remember that empty/endless feeling, that feeling of uncontrollability
from the first time i tripped a bit too hard, and i just feel like im there again. Kinda like a flashback..
really nice write up. Its odd (yet some how understandable) how alot of people feel the same thing when they first trip really hard.

Hahaa man, its pretty neat to get a buzz from reading a story..
i started to feel alot better when you wrote about how you fell in love when you came down. The come down is my favorite part.. its when i feel the most euphoric, plus i feel like im actually capable of doing normal everyday things again. Its really cool that you had a little town to run around in, and no body f-ed with you, and im glad you didnt go into the hospital!! It might have been a bit too much to have all those people staring and fussing at you

How big was that pike you caught?
that would have totally blown my mind.

And to the ex girlfriend:

[kocos]

Exactly man, even though i was scared shitless from the first experience, the coming down was just so pleasent that i wanted to go back there, feel that love, that peace and unity in myselfe, not to mention allthe freaky visuals. However, it is possible that the reason why i hesitate to venture deeper is because of these experiences i had, iam not in a rush, so ill gradually get back into the deep realms.

That town was pretty sweet, my whole life was pretty sweet then, no work, no school, just home grown and mushies The pike wasnt too big like 2-3 kgs. I remember coming down to the river it took me like half an hour to get my gear ready, i was to fascinated looking around myselfe and at my own hands which had small waves of color rushing around. Then i got my bait box out and for some idiotic reason i picked an 80 gramm, sea fishing so called "pilk" out which is for heavy gear, and for deep water and ofcourse sea fish. Anyhow, i atached that bar of iron to my line, and threw it so hard that almost all my line like 120 m came of the real. The secong i started retreiving i had a fish on, and had a long fight due to the current and the distance, and meanwhile standing there on the edge of the river, i was laughting histerically at the fact that i got a fish on the first cast on that ridiculos lure plus waching the boils, and wirls changing color constantly. I remember afte rgetting home that day, i was coming down and felt for a shot, so i took a shot of my grandmas 60% peach moonshine, and man, that stuff made me hit ground zero ass first, it was like a punch

And that girlfriend... long gone and forgotten

[shroom_seeker]

Great report Kocos.

[kocos]

Glad you enjoyed

[koldjgdaro]

Very nice reports indeed. I live in Denmark, so I know semilanceatas. We can both agree that they're very different than cubes. Sooo much more colorful, vivid, and the trip is somewhat more lucid as well, and deeper at the same time. During semilanceata trip nature communicates with you clearer and the insights are more shamanistic, at least for me . I believe that the reason for it is (a FOAF talked to a shaman) that these mushies have the soul of this soil, where they grow and where we - Europeans are living. Cubes are psiloc(yb)in too, but they're not from here, they don't bring the soul of the place where they grow, unless you eat them in their natural habitat.

[Hippie3]

if you really believe they have souls
then why do you murder them for
your own pleasure ?
it's not like you need the food.

[mycobri]

excellent report

liberty caps are always on my mind as the most desired experience

must have been a sight to see to run full-on tripping through a area with giant amanitas growing

[cheshire]

awsome read

plz add a few paragraphs to help my eyes i like reading ut stuff!

[koldjgdaro]

Originally Posted by Hippie3

if you really believe they have souls
then why do you murder them for
your own pleasure ?
it's not like you need the food.

Cause I wanna protect others from eating them! They may be dangerous for some ppl ;D.
No, but seriously - my post was a subjective, spiritual, shamanistic opinion, that's all. Wanna talk about it?
Look what I found yesterday .
It wasn't too much, but as for the beginning of the season it was a nice start. Semis are back! While I was walking on that field and picking them about 15 horses ran up to me and, they were so sweet and curious. I made new friends. There was even some stroking involved, lol.
And to the report - the tripping cat was the THING .

[kocos]

Originally Posted by mycobri

excellent report

liberty caps are always on my mind as the most desired experience

must have been a sight to see to run full-on tripping through a area with giant amanitas growing

Sure was They made the trip just that much more magicall. Another thing i noticed with semis is that during the comedown or if a small threshold dose was taken then most CEV's were mushrooms, random species but actually quite a few times it was semilenciatas i saw. During this first trip, when i had cleared my stomache out, and laid down in bed, i was enjoying my blanket forming a landscape infront of me, the folds and cracks apeared to be mountaines and canyons, not to mention that they changed shape and color constantly. Another great little OEV was the ceiling (not sure of spelling) covered in these small dots, it was basically the finish layer of paint which contained small particles, what i saw was these dots sending small spirals out which twisted and turned. Try to imagine a huge white surface with small bumps sticking out and almost like a cobweb reaching out from each one, as the hallucination progressed the small bumps matured into pins and after some time into full grown semis. Now imagine that site, the entire ceiling above me was a field of semilenciatas their base being the twisting rainbow cobwebs, now that sight i reaaaly enjoyed.

As for the tripping cat being cool. It wasnt under those circumstances, imagine coming home after runig around in the forest for hours on end thinking your going insane and it wont ever end, and what you find is your cat tripping hard, with pupils dialated to such an extent that the eyes were one big pupil, and naturally the cats face was twisting and turning, its eyes bulging out as it meowed at me constantly, she was probably as afraid as me