Nine Moons

[M&M420]

Sending you some great vibes shroom seeker.Hoping you're welcomed with open arms from the ayahuasca spirits.All these post are truly inspirational to continuing my own journey.Thanks for sharing brother

[Oblivion]

On the 4th of july, I held my usual party where we break the law by setting of fireworks. Tripping on philosopher stones I had an awesome time. One of my guests had a flat tire (I think her ex husband did it, he's like that). I changed her tire at midnight while tripping. Later on I led my niece into the realm of spice. I don't know how many karma points I earned that night but I'm sure it was quite a few. Anyway, I'm sending 50 your way to help your voyage be a good one.

[Om shanti]

Originally Posted by shroom_seeker

I plan to consume very late tonight or first thing in the morning. Still accepting all the good vibes i can get.

I noticed the full moon here last night and thought it was going to be time for Shroom seeker's next journey.. Hope you have a great journey!

Boundless and free is the sky of Samádhi!
Bright the full moon of wisdom!
Truly, is anything missing now?
Nirvana is right here, before our eyes,
This very place is the Lotus Land,
This very body, the Buddha
Hakuin - Song of Zazen

[thatgreenthumb]

sending good vibes for you. Im interested to hear how it goes for you.

[Shroomette]

I'm anxious to hear how your journey went shroom_seeker... On the 4th of July me and irishlion dosed on 7 to 8 dry grams of Thai Lipa yais and went down by the river.. It was truly amazing trip and sharing it with irishlion made it more beautiful and then watched a little of the fireworks .... I was in Awe. So, good luck on this journey hun.

[toadshroom]

Sending you some good vibes bud. Last night I dosed and thought of you, knowing that you would be tripping last night or tonight with the full moon.

[prism]

OOOOOOOOOmmmmmmmmmmmm!!

[JohnDoe]

have a nice trip bro, see you on the other side

[shroom_seeker]

Hey all , thanks so much for the kind words and wishes. I am currently making my final reduction to the ayah brew, after 6 washes yesterday i was left with 1L of brew which i plan to bring down to 175ml (two doses). I have been fasting for about 16 hours now and plan to consume within the next hour or so. I've packed Miakoda with some kind bud and am ready to dance - here's hoping i make it to the edge.

Peace.

[toadshroom]

whoo hoo! Sendin you some great vibes right now. Hopefully you've already made it to the edge safely. Did you get some good weather for the full moon? We had an absolutely clear night, it was gorgeous!

[Oblivion]

Wow, I got butterflies when I saw her loaded up like that. Very interested to see how your day went bro. Can't wait to read about it.

[shroom_seeker]

The ayahuasca tasted surprisingly good as i sipped my first dose slowly consuming it over the course of twenty minutes or so. One problem i did have (and i'm not sure if this is common) was the consistency of my brew was very sludge-like, this may have been a result of my use of powdered caapi in my preparation. I purchased the powdered caapi some time back before reading that its use is not recommended in many teks - i have the feeling most of the powder made its way into my final drink.

Moving on.. a good feeling moved over me quickly after consumption. It was a feeling of a mother's love, earthy and caring. As often the case, my mind quickly turned to my own life and its current stresses. The night before consumption i had gotten into an ugly fight with my wife, and i was worried that the brew would punish me for my bad behavior. Instead, i was shown love and a compassion came over me to see things from my wife's point of view, within minutes i left my room to lay down next to her in our bed. Peace filled my body and spirit, and while i held my love i could think of nothing more than how much i care for her and how i need to step up and do the best i can for her, myself and our future. It's hard to stay mad at someone when the whole basis of the fight is because they miss you. I love you babe - thanks for putting up with me, i know it isn't always easy. I spent an hour or so laying in bed with my wife before returning to my room to continue.

The time had come to get acquainted with my new pipe. Thank you again Oblivion, as this gift is one of the most special i have ever received. Miakoda felt beautiful in my hand, and her soft smoke filled my body with warmth. I puffed away, elevating myself into dream land as the herb mixed in my body with the ayahuasca. Magic saturated the room around me, and i noticed a pattern of life superimpose itself over my immediate surroundings. I felt great, and decided to play some music. The Grateful Dead rocked my world, with a flow of music and emotion filling my space as lyric after lyric rang true. I just sat there on my futon puffing away, singing along with all my heart and pumping my fist over and over as the Dead inspired me and my belief in the overall love and possibilities of humanity and our place on this amazing earth. Its been a long time since i felt so good.

My black cat jumped up and rubbed against me while i sang, and i returned the favor by rubbing back. There was no hesitation as we meshed with each other, you should have seen the fire in his eyes as he connected with the energies in the room and turned into a large cat from the jungle in front of my eyes. We both enjoyed it immensely, thank you ayahuasca.

I heard a lot of bird chirping during my trip, definitely from outside my window as well as some from the plants i suspect. At one point i called back to the birds outside with a series of short whistles and chirps, it sounded wrong and this was confirmed by my cat who gave me a look like 'nice try dude but you're a bit off'. Something to work on i suppose. I just continued to hang in my room listening to music. I laid down on the futon and stretched my body, releasing much of my built up tension and realigning my lower back. At one point i was carried away by the music and got lost in a state of bliss before returning to myself.

All in all it was a very rewarding experience. I didn't make it to the edge or have any mind-shattering visions, but the love and healing i felt from the ayahuasca was a beautiful thing. I most definitely look forward to working with these plants and their partners in the future. Before bed i drank most of my second dose and just glowed from the inside out.

Thank you Topiates for all the love you're sharing in this thread as well as the pm's. SomeKindofDrug - i am very pleased that this thread inspires you. LargeMarge - i know you are still on the path even now, but you will be soaring down it sooner than later, now go and offer your gift of feathers to that kind elder in your life! M&M420 - you plain kick-ass man, thx for the visit! Shroomette - i am glad for you and Irish, that must have been a beautiful time down by the river. Thatgreenthumb - thank you very much. Om shanti - a breathtaking verse you've shared, thank you very much! Toadshroom - thanks for stopping by and the good vibes, we also had nice clear nights for viewing as of late. Prism1234 - your energy is appreciated!! JohnDoe - i'll see you there! Oblivion - what more can i say, but i thank God for connecting us. The pipe is a true work of art, yesterday i spent much time admiring its grain, patterns and energy. She feels so right in my hand. Thanks all, the good vibes are priceless.

Until next time..
shroom_seeker

[Om shanti]

Great report, Shroom seeker! I can feel the good vibes from your journey. Stay on that frequency! :-)

[Oblivion]

The night before consumption i had gotten into an ugly fight with my wife, and i was worried that the brew would punish me for my bad behavior. Instead, i was shown love and a compassion came over me to see things from my wife's point of view, within minutes i left my room to lay down next to her in our bed. Peace filled my body and spirit, and while i held my love i could think of nothing more than how much i care for her and how i need to step up and do the best i can for her, myself and our future. It's hard to stay mad at someone when the whole basis of the fight is because they miss you. I love you babe - thanks for putting up with me, i know it isn't always easy. I spent an hour or so laying in bed with my wife before returning to my room to continue.

I swear I could have written that myself. My work sometimes keeps me from home for months on end. I don't know if that's your situation or not but nevertheless I know what pain separation brings. I have always said that separation makes the hearts fonder. Flawless report bro, absolutely flawless.

[shroom_seeker]

Well brothers and sisters as the moons waxes closer to full i sit here and think of you all, and our trips ahead. I am very excited about my next voyage with mushrooms, which will be a group trip between four of my closest friends and myself. The setting is ideal, a 5 acre wooded lot privately owned by a friend and his family who have been in possession of the land since the 70's. Just down the road from a lake, the lot has a clearing in the middle with a fire pit, tents around the perimeter and trails to the back. The site has electricity, an outhouse and a well, although none of those things will be needed for where we are going. Hell, my bro's old man is such a sport he even insists on going down the day before our arrival to mow grass and prep the land. The best part of the setting is that it is located in the middle of nowhere, we can blast the radio, dance, shout, laugh, cry, and we don't have to worry about anybody crashing our party.

Our group cannot join forces until the weekend, so we will be taking flight Saturday evening. Sending good vibes out there to anyone who will be voyaging over the course of the next several days. Stay safe and be well friends.

The mushroom fairy visited recently and gifted some white lightning cubensis for the occasion. Apparently some cakes were shot up multi-spore and fruited before being crumbled and spawned to a coir/hpoo tub.

ss

[Aislyn Wendell]

Originally Posted by shroom_seeker

we will be taking flight Saturday evening.

Can't wait!

[Shroomette]

Very beautiful trip report of the Aya and inspiritational.

Good Luck on the next trip and may the mushrooms treat you well, heal what needs to be healed, cleanse, and teach you what they want to teach you.

[Oblivion]

I looked up to the moon last night and though you'd be having your trip soon. Sounds like you've got a nice place picked out. I love fire and tripping, just love it. I hope y'all have a great trip and I look forward to reading your report.

[seedlessstinky1]

Planning a recharge soon too my friend.

Sounds like an ideal adventure. Looking forward to hearing the report...Sending good vibes to you and yours.

Stay safe and journey well my brother.

[toadshroom]

Sending you some good vibes brother! Sounds like you're going to an ideal place. I may try my spice on saturday after work if im in the right mood and who knows, maybe my spirit will travel to where you guys are and i'll party with you haha

[Om shanti]

Hope you all had a great one, Shroom Seeker! Nice mush haul btw!

[shroom_seeker]

Our group met friday morning and spent most of the day setting up and settling into camp. Friday night we had a bonfire, as per usual we tossed in some garden hose and copper tubing, just check out the neat colors in the first picture attached. Hehe now check out the second through sixth pictures to see the random faces that popped up in front of me in the fire pit. Oh yeah, thats one pissed off dude that came out first, followed shortly after by his female counterpart. Not sure the message on that one, dude was not happy, although i could really identify with the agony of the witch that followed. That night we were hit with a righteous thunder and lightning storm, and although it poured rain throughout we managed to stay dry in our shelters, a sign of good things to come.

Saturday we grabbed a breakfast and decided to go hiking at a nearby rock outcropping; a sacred piece of native land now turned into a state park, with a rigorous trail that tested the strength of our group. If there's one thing i do enjoy before a trip its going to a place of power with a clean mindset and soaking in some good energy. I like to gather power by hiking at a steady pace with minimal talk, all the while opening my mind to the environment around me. After our hike our group showered up and went back to the campsite to get ready for our trip.

3.5 grams was the dose all around, powdered and mixed with orange juice. We had one of those experiences where 10-15 minutes into it we're wondering whether the mushrooms are bunk, 20-30 minutes into it we're holding on for dear lives. The white lightning packs one hell of a body buzz, i was glued to my chair for the first wave or two. I just sat back and took it, closed my eyes and enjoyed some intense cev's. A brilliant electric light made up of white, blue and green bands danced behind my eyelids. When i looked closer i could see all of the colors of the rainbow, and for the first time i noticed what seemed to be a double-helix form and swirl. Opening my eyelids the visuals projected upon my surroundings, although not as intense as with eyes closed. You know, the more i do these mushrooms the more clear, colorful and wicked these visuals become. I enjoy them very much and look forward to really diving in and exploring the colors someday.

The trip was rough, but i gotta say at least in my case rough does not always equal bad anymore. Looking around at my fellow trippers it was easy to see everyone was lost in their own heads. I decided to use the age old maneuver of adding wood to the fire to help break the mood. I love you brother wood, and thank you so much for giving yourself. How many years have you graced these grounds, ten, twenty, thirty perhaps? Now the fire rages. I'm sorry if i've offended anyone. We are all equals, we all come here for respect, and last time i checked we are all still free right. I lay my transgressions down beside this fire, burn, burn away. The sweat pours from my body as the fire grows, i'm elated and the spirit moves my body to dance. Clearly and absolutely i've found my element. Thank you mushrooms, and thank you fire.

A catbird calls out from the woods. A woman screams in the background. At one point an alien buzz takes over our surroundings and i swear to god i thought they were about to park the spaceship and take us aboard. Nothing another log or two on the fire can't solve, just ignore the alien hum and vibration and everything is cool right. I wasn't afraid of the sound, but did not want to usher my friends into their first alien contact.

My partner Aislyn did not have a friendly trip. I'll let her words speak for her experiences if she chooses. As i know you will read this let me just tell you once more that i love you very very much. One more time let me remind you that the worst trips can be the most teaching, but it does take some effort to reap the lessons. I am here for you and will sit for you or go with you if you want to go there again.

Overall our group had a great time. I thought of all you other topiates out there, of the idea of our satellite fires burning throughout this beautiful land. I thought of Hip and what he does for us all. Please push that -> donate button from time to time folks to support this site. As always thank you for the love and words of encouragement, they really mean so much to me.


shroom_seeker

[mystic]

Once again friend what a wonderful trip report. I know the feeling of burn baby burn. Fire hold a very healing place within me also. I recently burned me tripping hat on a few grams of mush. THE HAT HAD TO GO. (I kinda miss that hat). Sounds as though your girl didnt have such a good time. Sometimes I have found that mush taken with groups of people can be devastating to your mind. The mush for me is earthy and I always end up close to the ground holding on to clumps of grass telling the mother I love her and to just hold me til this to I can ride out. The peak I feel the universal oneness and the comedown I pass the fuck out ( over the years I developed a tek at falling asleep after the intensity of the trip is over).

Glad to see you have made it to the 5th Moon with little damage.
Much love brother!

[Oblivion]

I'm glad fire was involved with your trip. Much like the pipe, it's another link between man and nature that wields great power. That is one of the reasons I thoroughly enjoy winter trips. The insects have left the forest and the fire gives what it can to keep me warm. I would say that it's regretful about Aislyn's trip but only time will tell the purpose of that trip. What good could come from it, only she can discover.
I also ate 3.5g on Saturday night. A pattern of foul night trips has been plaguing me for some time now. I had no fire to calm me and let me say the despair I felt was more than I could withstand. Misery within misery dominated me. The coming storm and my miserable work life were without question factors for my continued misery. At midnight or thereabouts, something happened that changed my life forever. In the blink of an eye, my absolute despair and misery fell away from me as if the light from the sun shone on darkness and vanquished it with a power so great, it shook my soul.
It's Monday now and I work with vigor and enthusiasm. I feel as if a pile of coal has been laid next to my soul and any coal I use to fuel my fire is replaced doubly the next day.

[Shroomette]

I can feel you on the fire shroom_seeker as it's had a calming effect on mushrooms and Mescaline for me. Glad you had a great trip. I'm so sorry the trip wasn't great for Aislyn but, like you said, those are the ones that bring out the lessons as with my breakthrough trip but, to me it was wonderful and I have faith that she will figure out and find peace with her trip. Me and Irishlion dosed Sunday morning around 6 a.m. I ate 9 grams and he ate 10 grams, needless to say, I guess you can grow a tolerance to them because I, had a mild trip and Irishlion said, he barely tripped. I believe it was mild because I didn't have them teach me anything but, I did enjoy the visuals as we layed in the room for a while and then moved downstairs. Should have went outside to get better acquaintant with the world but, all in all a good trip for me. I know I would love to hear about Aislyn's trip I, have had some not so great trips in the past also, but, I've always found peace after a day or two after I realize what they are trying to teach me. Thanks for sharing your write up shroom_seeker you and Aislyn are an inspiriation.

[Aislyn Wendell]

This was probably the worst trip of my life.

I'm not a fan of mixing shrooms with food (we mixed with OJ), I'd rather just eat them plain, so that I'll keep in mind from now on. I also can't stand being hot. Throw me into a snowstorm naked (seriously, I used to wear sandals in the dead of winter), but don't ask me to sit in front of a fire in 90 degree heat. I was already uncomfortable, and I should have known better than to take the mushrooms, as it just amplified those feelings. I ended up spiraling deeper and deeper into self-pity and loathing. My dog wasn't with us, so she wasn't there to comfort and ground me and I felt incredibly uprooted being so far from home and with people that I am not close with. I was starting to talk which made me feel a little better, but then I realized no one wanted to hear me talk. I felt self-consious and thought about how everyone must wonder why in hell Seeker committed himself to someone like me. I tried to be on my own, but all I wanted was to ramble to Seeker for a while, but I didn't ask him because I didn't want to ruin anything for anyone else. At the end I really didn't think I'd come out of it, especially since I normally take a looooonnng cold shower as I'm coming to wash away the brain shit I've gotten out - so it was and is just clinging to me. Now I'm just trying to scrape myself clean again, and it's rough. I honestly would have taken bawling in the corner thinking I am going to die over this. At least then the tears would have cleansed me a little. I am sorry to sound so bitter, but I guess it's just how I'm feeling right now. I guess I'm presented with the challenge of getting over myself, and knowing that only I have the ability to change how I feel...

Maybe this is a test to see if I can apply what I learned in my New Moon trip? I think only time will tell on this one.

Plus, that quote from Job came into my head during the trip, "the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away"...

Thank you all for your kind wishes and love. A girl couldn't ask for more.

[toadshroom]

Shroom_seeker, i'm glad you had a good weekend brother, it sounds like it was great. I'm sure the hike was gorgeous and uplifting. Your story about the fire sounds wicked! I love staring into campfires and I'm def. going to have to try the copper tubing in the fire tonight. I'm sorry to hear Aislyn didn't have such a good time, but I've learned quickly that can happen on this road we all travel...and speaking of which..."there is a road, no simple highway between the dawn and the dark of night and if you go, no one may follow. That path is for your steps alone....but if you fall, you fall alone. If you should stand then who's to guide you? If I knew the way I would take you home" ...I have faith too that everything'll be alright. Some of the lessons I've learned on this journey have been hard and they weren't fun lessons to learn at the time, but crucial to where i am today and where I'm going. Beautiful pics by the way! I put up some in my report from last weekend that are pretty cool too, you should check'em out. Peace brother!

[shroom_seeker]

Originally Posted by mystic

I know the feeling of burn baby burn. Fire hold a very healing place within me also. I recently burned me tripping hat on a few grams of mush. THE HAT HAD TO GO. (I kinda miss that hat).

Thanks for sharing that Mystic, the bit about your hat really made me laugh.

Sometimes I have found that mush taken with groups of people can be devastating to your mind. over the years I developed a tek at falling asleep after the intensity of the trip is over

Yes the group setting really can effect the trip. Personally i would have gone deeper into my mind if i wasn't constantly checking on friends around me, but on the other hand i am honored to sacrifice a little to share this experience with others. I'd love to hear more about your 'falling asleep tek' Mysty!

Originally Posted by Oblivion

I also ate 3.5g on Saturday night. A pattern of foul night trips has been plaguing me for some time now. I had no fire to calm me and let me say the despair I felt was more than I could withstand. Misery within misery dominated me. The coming storm and my miserable work life were without question factors for my continued misery. At midnight or thereabouts, something happened that changed my life forever. In the blink of an eye, my absolute despair and misery fell away from me as if the light from the sun shone on darkness and vanquished it with a power so great, it shook my soul.

Very interesting that you dosed the same amount saturday night brother. It is refreshing to know that an experienced tripper like yourself is still subject to a hellish trip from time to time, not that i wish that on anyone, but nice to know we are not alone in that regards. I am so glad the the light came through for you and i truly wish those positive energies stay with you for a long time.

Originally Posted by Shroomette

Me and Irishlion dosed Sunday morning around 6 a.m. I ate 9 grams and he ate 10 grams, needless to say, I guess you can grow a tolerance to them because I, had a mild trip and Irishlion said, he barely tripped.

Sorry to hear of your lackluster trip Shroomette. The mushrooms are so special to me i'd be sad if the magic faded away. Perhaps you should wait awhile before dosing again, or work with the cactus some more. Regardless i'm sure the mushrooms have much more to teach you and i have no doubts that you will be sharing some great reports in the not too distant future.

Originally Posted by Aislyn Wendell

I was starting to talk which made me feel a little better, but then I realized no one wanted to hear me talk. I felt self-consious and thought about how everyone must wonder why in hell Seeker committed himself to someone like me. I tried to be on my own, but all I wanted was to ramble to Seeker for a while, but I didn't ask him because I didn't want to ruin anything for anyone else.

I'm not sure it was a case of us not wanting to hear you as much as everyone was just riding those waves so hard. Although you knew everyone there and your friend accompanied you that group setting was clearly not for you. I understand your feelings of self-consciousness, but nobody there looked down on you, everyone knows you are an extremely intelligent and awesome woman. I can truly identify with your feelings of social awkwardness, and how stressful it can be when amplified by the mushrooms. I feel for your bad trip, but i believe you will pull through this for the positive. You've mentioned to me revisiting the mushrooms with me as your sitter, and i am all for this, but would like to say that in my personal experience you can go through a series of bad trips before breaking through the negative. Just a heads up, and i love you.

Originally Posted by toadshroom

there is a road, no simple highway between the dawn and the dark of night and if you go, no one may follow. That path is for your steps alone....but if you fall, you fall alone. If you should stand then who's to guide you? If I knew the way I would take you home

Thanks for stopping by and sharing that verse of truth, toadshroom. Have fun tonight, gonna go check out your pics now!

[Shroomette]

Shroom_seeker I have to agree with you. it's time to lay the mushrooms to rest for now but, not forever. Although I truly love them and what they have taught me. It's been awhile since I've had the cactus tea and I think it's time to venture into learning from the spirit teacher again but, I want a 3 cutting tea for a breakthrough on the cactus this time. I feel that I'm ready to find out more about myself as Cactus seems to do in my last few journeys.


Aislyn, I too have experienced a similar trip to yours as to asking "Why is Irishlion with someone like me"? and "Why isn't he paying attention to me when I try to talk to him"? Well, the mushrooms didn't answer that for me because in my experience the mushrooms will answer the questions deep inside of you not the ones that you want answered right away. Now the last trip on Mescaline did answer those questions for me as well as Irishlion. I hope the next journey you take helps you. But, I have also, learned that every trip you take isn't gonna be great or at times beautiful but, more of a learning experience. I truly believe you will overcome these sad feeling you have toward yourself. Just take it one step at a time.

[LargeMarge]

Originally Posted by shroom_seeker

You've mentioned to me revisiting the mushrooms with me as your sitter,...

It's funny you should mention this. I was thinking about tripping again as well... maybe tomorrow... as I keep getting the urge that I was supposed to go further than the group setting allowed. I feel as if it was a staging platform for a private trip.

I am still processing my trip and will be posting my report later tonight, but I wanted to thank Seeker and Aislyn for inviting me. It was a much needed get away from my previously stressful living conditions and was a truley enjoyable weekend in spite of the heat.

[Aislyn Wendell]

Originally Posted by Shroomette

Aislyn, I too have experienced a similar trip to yours as to asking "Why is Irishlion with someone like me"? and "Why isn't he paying attention to me when I try to talk to him"? Well, the mushrooms didn't answer that for me because in my experience the mushrooms will answer the questions deep inside of you not the ones that you want answered right away. Now the last trip on Mescaline did answer those questions for me as well as Irishlion. I hope the next journey you take helps you. But, I have also, learned that every trip you take isn't gonna be great or at times beautiful but, more of a learning experience. I truly believe you will overcome these sad feeling you have toward yourself. Just take it one step at a time.

Thanks Shroomette, it's nice to hear it when someone else can relate. And I think you're right about the questions mushrooms answer, this trip was really confusing, and I think that's why my report is so jumbled. I'm not sure if I will ever try Mescaline... but I guess we'll see. This was not my only hard and ugly trip, but it sure as hell was the only one where I didn't feel cleansed and refreshed after, and I think the setting really had a lot to do with it. I'm trying to sort things out and find my lesson, and it is really hard because my feelings are like smoke... the minute I think I've got it nailed down it shifts into something different. That is the best way I can describe it now. Maybe my lesson here is the need to overcome my insecurities and self hatred. Tough one, not sure I'm up to the challenge. But I guess I don't have a choice.

I am feeling much better, and everyone's kind words have helped. Seeker and I just got back from a really nice date, which also always helps!

I don't mean to hyjack Seeker's thread, and I am so happy he had a great time. He looked so happy dancing around and throwing big logs onto the fire. I know it also meant a lot to him to have his close friends around.

[someKindofDrug]

[Aislyn Wendell]

Seeker, you are a great inspiration and guide. Your journey has been great and I am lucky to see firsthand how it goes.

[tkbn420]

Originally Posted by Aislyn Wendell

I ended up spiraling deeper and deeper into self-pity and self-loathing... I felt self-consious and thought about how everyone must wonder why in hell Seeker committed himself to someone like me.

My .02: I am posting from my iPod touch so I can't quote multiple posts but I would have quoted from your post where you said you enjoyed seeing seeker dance around the fire and spend time with his close friends. I believe this trip was trying to teach you your true value. It made you feel small and inadequate to show you how ridiculous those feelings are. Every human being has immense worth and it's insane whenever any one of us has those feelings. I believe the teachers bring those feelings out and exaggerate them so that you will go through exactly what you went through then sober up and realize how ridiculous it was for you to feel worthless/ugly/whatever other negative emotions you feel. Mushrooms really helped me to remember my worth in this way; by taking your insecurities to the ridiculous extremes they expose the feelings as invalid and without basis in reality. Lastly, I would have included that quote from your other post to point out to you that he had a wonderful time with his close friends. You were there. He thinks so highly of you that he included you in a great gathering of his nearest and dearest. He knows your worth; we all here know your worth, when will you let yourself know your worth? And finally, I recommend a tandem trip with seeker for your next trip, and I'd make it really light, just enough to connect you with seeker on that higher plane and maybe he can help you discover your worth.
Peace

[Aislyn Wendell]

Originally Posted by tkbn420

I believe this trip was trying to teach you your true value. It made you feel small and inadequate to show you how ridiculous those feelings are. Every human being has immense worth and it's insane whenever any one of us has those feelings. I believe the teachers bring those feelings out and exaggerate them so that you will go through exactly what you went through then sober up and realize how ridiculous it was for you to feel worthless/ugly/whatever other negative emotions you feel. Mushrooms really helped me to remember my worth in this way; by taking your insecurities to the ridiculous extremes they expose the feelings as invalid and without basis in reality.
...
And finally, I recommend a tandem trip with seeker for your next trip, and I'd make it really light, just enough to connect you with seeker on that higher plane and maybe he can help you discover your worth.
Peace

Thanks for your point of view, it's a really great way of looking at it. I will definitely take it to heart.
As for a trip with Seeker... We normally trip only together, and they usually are the best. But I think I'll lay off the mushrooms for a bit, and let this all soak in. I also need to prep to join Seeker on his final moon with ayawaska. I'm pretty nervous, so I plan on eating well, getting some exercise and getting my head on as straight as I can.

[seedlessstinky1]

I'm gad you got to do the dance with majik....

Always learning we are. Love the colors as well. Always a blast to read about the moons.

Thx for sharing.

[Oblivion]

Salvia's on deck, how's your supply Shroom Seeker? You gonna have enough?

[shroom_seeker]

Funny you asked.. i goofed on my fresh plants, only mama left over now and i don't want to use her all up. I really wanted to try a fresh quid but my neglect caught up with me during these summer months.

The good thing is i've got lots of leaf and several packages of extract to make up for it. Smoked a good deal of sage in the past and can get off pretty easily from plain leaf. I'm not sure but i'll probably pack up two bowls, start off with some leaf in one and then rip into the other layered with green and extract. Of course with salvia it always depends how it goes and i'm never really sure until the time approaches.

[Oblivion]

Cool, just wanted to make sure you were tooled up.

[shroom_seeker]

Thanks for checking on me brother.

[shroom_seeker]

It's that time once again folks. The moon is full and i'm ready to fly. Miakoda is loaded up with four dried leaves of home grown salvia (first time consuming my own plant), and my glass pipe has been packed with kind bud and topped off with black extract. I checked on my mama plant and she is doing pretty well - i plan to start my trip with a fresh quid of 15 leaves or so. Gonna go shower up and smudge a clean space, should be taking off in an hour or so.

Much love to everyone, especially those journeying through the misty waters of psychedelia tonight. Be safe friends.

[Beastmaster]

Woot! See you out there!

[eastwood]

Enjoy your Adventure ~ !

[Om shanti]

Have a pleasant flight!!

[shroom_seeker]

I prepared my quid with fifteen fresh leaves by removing the middle leaf veins with my fingernail and stacking the leaves into a pile. The quid filled one side of my mouth, and after taking it i laid down on my bed and closed my eyes. For fifteen minutes i chewed on the leaves and let the juices run back and forth. After about five or ten minutes i started noticing colors dancing around behind my eyelids. At fifteen minutes i spit my quid into a bowl at my bedside and continued to lay in bed with eyes closed. Dark purples and similar colors moved around. I felt like i was moving through a space, sorta similar to that cool animation of christopher walken that Om Shanti shared. (how did you know!) At the height of my experience a black hole or tunnel of sorts manifested straight in front of me in my vision. I tried to move towards the tunnel but could not make it there, the more i tried the more it regressed and faded away from me. Not long after i sat up in bed and opened my eyes.

Moving to the edge of my bed i found a nice spot looking out my bay window. Just outside i had a beautiful view of the moon shining between the conifers that line my property. I picked up Miakoda and began puffing away on the plain dried leaf. The smoke was smooth, and before long i was pulled into a familiar salvia trance. I could feel it in my face and head, which seemed to vibrate or almost shake. I looked out my window and noticed a police car drive by. Keep on moving Johnny law, you do your thing and i'll do mine. Moments later another cop car drives by in the opposite direction. I continue puffing away, taking big drags inhaling deep into my chest and holding as long as i can. Nodding in and out i hear another car passing, this time i am pulled away with the the sound of the moving car into the street. Salvia does something strange with the space around you. At large doses it can blow you into pieces, or alter the landscape around you turning it flat, liquid etc. I took my last hit of plain leaf and hallucinated as a set of headlights popped up and then disappeared in the street.

Moving on to my extract i pulled out my butane lighter and took a huge hit. The taste was black and rich, holding it in i was put farther into the trance. Outside i heard the vibration and noises of crickets and other life surrounding me. I could feel many familiar physical sensations from past salvia experiences, minus the hot face and sweating. Was this the absence of fear? I've been riding such a positive wave lately and had little worries as to where the sage might take me. I sat there looking out my window and time seemed to stop completely. A sensation of peace swept over me as i felt completely at one with the universe and my simple place in it. For a moment i had no worries, no obligations, no expectations and no judgments. I was simply just a dude high on salvia and staring out his window in a very indulging manner. There was no more traffic, nothing moving, just time stopped still and me in the center of it all.

I ripped into my extract some more and remembered why i prefer to use a small water pipe with salvia - the butane flame can really scorch the back of your windpipe when you hit it hard. The high continued and i found myself on my floor in the midst of some personal prayers. I was kneeling in the dark and moved closer to the window where the moonlight could fall down on me. It was so soothing and really made me feel good throughout my trip. Near the end i stood back up and just bathed in the light in my bedroom. I felt uplifted and happy, like papa bear in his comfy home. I turned to face the wall that separated me from my living room and my wife. I tried to send some positive love her way before laying down in bed and passing out. Some time later she would open the door and come lay down next to me. We held each other and fell asleep. Overall it was a very positive experience - thank you salvia.

And thank you all once again for the support. It's very much appreciated. I hope you all are tripping and living well. I love you.

[Aislyn Wendell]

Originally Posted by shroom_seeker

I looked out my window and noticed a police car drive by. Keep on moving Johnny law, you do your thing and i'll do mine. Moments later another cop car drives by in the opposite direction. I continue puffing away, taking big drags inhaling deep into my chest and holding as long as i can.

I'm honestly amazed the cop cars didn't freak you out, and for that I am happy.

Originally Posted by shroom_seeker

Was this the absence of fear? I've been riding such a positive wave lately and had little worries as to where the sage might take me. I sat there looking out my window and time seemed to stop completely. A sensation of peace swept over me as i felt completely at one with the universe and my simple place in it. For a moment i had no worries, no obligations, no expectations and no judgments. I was simply just a dude high on salvia and staring out his window in a very indulging manner. There was no more traffic, nothing moving, just time stopped still and me in the center of it all.

Originally Posted by shroom_seeker

I felt uplifted and happy, like papa bear in his comfy home. I turned to face the wall that separated me from my living room and my wife. I tried to send some positive love her way before laying down in bed and passing out. Some time later she would open the door and come lay down next to me. We held each other and fell asleep.

You're the best papa bear! I must have interpreted that "love" you sent as "time for bed!"

I am wondering if you would compare this to your other trips thus far, would you say this was a nice break in length and intensity? As your trip sitter for your moons (except the last) I felt really at ease with the Salvia because I know you're great friends with your "momma plant" and I also knew that even if things went bad, you'd be out of it within 15 minutes or so. Anyway, I love you, and I'm so honored to be with you through these Nine Moons. This sounded like your most peaceful trip so far.

[shroom_seeker]

Originally Posted by Aislyn Wendell

I am wondering if you would compare this to your other trips thus far, would you say this was a nice break in length and intensity? This sounded like your most peaceful trip so far.

You're right, this trip was a welcomed break in duration for me. My salvia trip lasted about one hour - compared so far to ayahuasca ~3hrs, mushrooms ~6hours, and cactus ~10hours you can see the length of trip was much shorter. Also, since i had the dried leaf and extract on hand it was very easy to put in a pipe and smoke. No long brews or prep on this one. Having grown this plant for nearly a year now we've gotten the chance to know each other more, and that helps too.

I'm honestly amazed the cop cars didn't freak you out

You know, i've befriended a few police officers over the years
they are people too..
feeling fear, love, pain, sadness, lust
and their role is not an easy one to play
My heart goes out to police, fire and emt
dealing with death and darkness on a daily basis
will most certainly change a person

as far as my personal paranoias..
some things do help one feel safer
Keeping a clean house is a must
and proceed with extreme caution..
if you mix real life with Mycotopia
Beware of who you trade with
and never give out your personal information
Respect those whose paths you cross
Staying free is a priority

[Oblivion]

Excellent report bro. Im with you on the appeal of short duration trips. Tis nice to expand the mind for a bit and then get back to the nuts and bolts of life.

[toadshroom]

hey bud, I haven't been on in a while but the other night I looked up and saw the full moon and immediately thought of you! I've moved into a new apt (with no internet grrr...) But hopefully I can get that sorted out soon. Good vibes to you brother!

[Calaquendi]

Super awesome thread Seeker...just wonderful. I've enjoyed the hell out of reading this!

Ehem...by the way, I was looking at your calendar and it looks like DMT is next on thy list for the moon cycle...yeah...heehee!!! Can't wait!

I think this thread is a great idea, unique.

Thank you for sharing all this, much love to you bro!

" In lunar horizons there is understanding..."