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[WilliamsEyeLophori]

feeling arogant enough to start a new thread, i know it pointless...
herb is an enemy, makes me (we) wanna cry, i love herb. im lost, havent smoked herb in a while, so many things it is good for, i think it realy helps me, and me being helped i am in a better position to help earth, what else can io say? i love shrooms tooo!
and buckethead, and mycotopia, great site,
mycotopia taught me the survivla skill my parents could not, thank you, gluck all

[aumbrellaforainydays]

survival skills...

[ifyoucouldsee]

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of others
(edit) or myself! .......

is guaranteed to be the death of me.



i have very low levels of self-control and cant keep my mouth shut sometimes, and i know ill say somethin from the heart (as always. i keep it real. and thats straight up truth. let it be known. ) and it will land me dead, in jail, or at the worst, banned from topia.

i hope none of the above ever occur. i just cant take fuckheads blabbering out nonsense that i morally (strongly enough to post about) disagree with. ethics/morals are something more folks should consider. i guess. i reckon. i gather.

the worlds a fucked up place. and humans are fucked up creatures. the human mind is one creepy machine. and we are all pawns ina giant chessgame. most of us are just too ignorant to see and/or realize it.

no im not a spunion. not a tweeker. it may be 5am and no i havent slept. but thats my norm. i dont want anyone thinkin im some weirdo. if you are on my level of thinking all the above will make perfect sense, if not, well, open yer ears and listen (read between the lines...no...your not reading hard enough....read betweeeeeen the lines. no. your not doing it still. ok. read the post again. in ful this time. ok? great. now you understanding? )

ok im a bit loopy... but cut me some slack... im shitfaced on yip (hence this being in tt&t and not gd or ls or r&r if i were like...on copious amts of vicodin or something rotfl.)
coke and whiskey (fucking amazing whiskey mind you. crown royal was on sale and i couldnt resist. finest canadian whiskey this side of the border i tell ya always been my fav. just dont invite anyone over when its around. well seasoned fish like myself will start grabbin the bottle and chuggin the shit after the 1st 2 or 3 cocktails/on the rocks drinks of it..i swear this dude drank 1/3 my bottle here in 1 chug the other night. i was pissed off and still am. that fucking drunkard owes me 20 bucks too i think lol)
that reminds me.
i hate cokeheads that are perma-spun on the shit and mean mr mustards if you will. always keepin a ten bob note up their nose.....man.... they aint as bad as junkies tho thats fer shit sure! imean...some, i guess... but junkies (smack/or crazyheavypharmieheads, not yer avg vic/oxy user here....h or 200mg+a day oxy bangers im talkin) ive stopped talking to altogether.
:ring ring: :ring ring:
"what? you sniff H? thats why yer always so sick? well fucker thanks for coming out of the closet! i fucking commend your honesty you motherfucking dicksmack!!!! (literally! lol this fucking guy told me he shot it into his cock once! horrible behavior! what a crime it is to sell/get folks hooked on these type of addictive drugs! but..to each his own i have no problem with ANY chemical. but use yer head. educate yerself. know what yer gettin into. sucks for those that havent the means to do this like folks out on the street that fall into it or people that grew up without a computer and erowid at their fingertips lol..back to my little scenario....)
"however, my good man(iac), im afraid to inform you, but, i want *nothing* to do with you. lose my number!"
or the best was my ex ex out of the blue 3am one mornin --
"where can you find a stamp/bundle? im fiending. please _____ help me."
um. bitch, i dont sell drugs. i told u that yesterday when u texted me for a rock. i offered my help in gettin u clean more then once. both times u fucked me over/stood me up and also robbed me last mth! u fucking joking?!
never text me again/lose my number. you junkie fucking thief. i pray that you find your soul again baby because ths shit has destroyed you bigtime. look at yourself and go to rehab if u wont take my help! i dont deal with your kind. sorry!"

so thats the shit ive experienced...
the fuckers will rob and rape ya no matter the relationship. trust!
your own mother would rob you in the midst of a crack/meth/heroin dependance and or binge, chemical dependant. real talk.

so!

keep yer distance form heroin addicts, kids.
theyre bad bad people (not their fault, usually, its the drug acting/talking, not them)
but sometimes, and actually very often, do i find its just that theyre just moronic IGNORANT fuckups bred that way. no true desire to better their lives and ZERO consideration for others, even before they started using. just natural fucks.
now, as users, they have even more corrupted minds and, will, in ALL cases, eventually lead them to becoming fucking evil hearted souless walking talking (if not puking and shitting at the same time jonessing at the time) bags of smack. they will, undoubtedly, at some point, trick you at any time they can take the advantage in front of them to do so (ie: one opportunist smackaddict stole a box of 5 fentynal patches from me when i went into the bathroom to drain the lizard. i figured since i was givin himhandfuls of free pills and stuff he would be cool nuff to not rob me. WRONG. this guy (lifelong 'friend' or so i thought!) is the one that owes me 600 bucks still for a loan i gave him (before i found out he was using h heavily), and my IGNORANCE to the fact that theyre all the same.*

*in that they will do anything for their fix.
which i cant blame em for, its physical. sad but true. and i can relate. however--
having been down that road. i can tell ya its fuckin gross.
i hope i never get lured back in.
heavyheavyheavy pill problems will lead you right into a horse addiction.
so big caveat to all pill poppers out there (myself included lol!)
i been doin good tho yay! only eatin them for pain these past few weeks.
might be mths now, even! maybe? i forget when i had my oppiphany (thats spelled wayyy wrong lol )...prolly cuz i been smokin a LOT of weed instead lol fucks with yer memory in the short term, but after a tolerance is built and yer perma-stoned, like i once/always was, before gettin into hard narcotics (daily) and am almost at the perma-baked/high olerance point again
in this state of mind, perpetually stoned, however expensive if you dont grow it yerself, you can remember, and function just like any other person in the world.
its just the no tolerance occasional users who act the fool, and the habitual users. those potheads that are irresponsible pricks no matter whether they started to smoke weed or not, they were just made/designed/bred to be a fucking dickhead lazy prick that doesnt know his ass from his elbow but claims to know more then any1 he encounters, or any other form of slackass piece of shit that HAPPENS to smoke pot that make the community of smokers, as a whole, look like a buncha freeloading losers, that fuck it up for the better ppart of the cannabis using comunity. they make us out as bad people in the eyes of normies

but i digress....im fuckin drunk enough and already popped my benzos so the yipyip is away for tonite....its time i wrap this up with a tt&t favorite--

FUCKEM.
FUCKEM ALL!
Fuck em all is what i say JUS DO IT? FUCK THAT! JUST FUCK EM!




lol....
take care!
if u actually read this you need to consider therapy. or get a life. or both. like me. lol.
ciao!

[eastwood]

[eastwood]

Uhhhh...Roll one.